Post by Jacoby Spencer on Oct 1, 2023 20:44:24 GMT -5
...VICTORY TEAM BLUE !?!?
Here I was. Sitting inside my villa. Staring out across the compound. Wondering. Thinking. Doubting. Even arguing within myself. Was I the leader that I set out to be before I walked out of my house and came to this place. Seeing what happened at the first event. Yes we as a team won. We garnered victory and got that ultimate prize. That isn’t the reason why I came here though. I came to show the world that I can accomplish victory in a challenge outside of the professional wrestling realm of things. Seeing how Brooke acted and reacted to, first the vote, then the overall team victory was a little crushing to me. Yes I know. I shouldn’t sit here and beat myself up over it. I lead the team to victory in one way. Shape. Or form. But I didn’t do enough. Or did I? Shit. Jacoby, stop this. You are better than this. Stop doubting yourself. Rise up from this stupidity.
As the words flash through my head. I get up and step out onto the balcony to my villa and take in a deep breath of the fresh, oceanic air. Hearing the party goers enjoying their little slice of paradise. I lean against the bannister and just peer out into the night sky. I stand there and begin to lose myself in the vast expanse of the night sky. The trillions of stars. The echo shadow of the milky way. I just float away.
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I awake with a different mindset. One with less self doubt. My mind was free, at least initially it was. I sit up in my bed and rise to my feet. Stretching. My eye catches the damn journal that was handed to me the moment I came to this place. Right then and there I decided I was going to write down all my thoughts of what is to come. My final decision, which was made the moment the offer to change teams came forth. Before I did anything else, I sat down at the desk, opened the damn thing and just started to write.
“So the choice to switch teams has been given to us. I am not sure how my other team members feel right now. I am hoping the ones that competed and did their best at Leap of Faith, will stand fast and remain with the blue team as I will be. I know that Brooke has already made her decision. That decision was made the moment the final vote to remove her from this team came down. I still feel bad about doing that. As I stood at the front of that bus as the unofficial team leader, bringing up that thought, I knew it was going to be the best thing overall for our team. For the blue team.”
“Sitting here. Now. Thinking about all of this. I am going to remain on the blue team and I am going to remain steadfast in my unofficial role as the leader of this team. Even if it means that I am going to be the only one standing against the rest of the red team.”
“Writing this seems a bit weird though. Why should I sit here and jot all of this feeling crap out. I could go and talk to Sauce. I could go and talk to another teammate about this. But I don’t know where the rest of them sit. I could sit here and write down all of the hippity hup blah running this mind of mine but in reality I don’t see the point. My thoughts are this. I am Jacoby Spencer. The New York Jackass. I was picked to be the leader of the blue team. Making the first selection for my team. So therefore, journal of the Last Man Standing, I sit here as a member of the blue team. As for the rest of the team, I plan on having chats with each and every single one of them. I would love to see where their heads might be at, especially with the second event fastly approaching. I still feel this is going to be used in nefarious ideas in the future but it is what it is.”
“I just hope that they cast me in the movie or whatever they decide to do, I am a badass.”
I chuckled to myself with that stupid line.
“I sat for most of the night last night mulling over in my head what this all meant. What am I going to do with myself throughout this event? I realized last night that I came here for one thing. I have one goal in mind. That goal is to truly be the last man standing. I knew this in the beginning. At least in the first challenge, it was a team event. The blue team did well as a team. We were able to defeat the red team. But I am not stupid enough to sit here and know that the entire competition is going to be a team sport. This is all about the individual. We are all individuals and we are out to get our own spotlight. I want to be the final one standing in the spotlight when this is all over.”
“I plan to do that but I know that I will make bonds with these people here too. But I will not let that cloud my judgment in the future of this competition. Blue team all the way. Jacoby Spencer is the only way.”
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I close the journal, feeling a little better. I made the decision… I am going to go get a good workout in. I heard through the grapevine that the Vilaro Fitness System is a top of the line gym to get a hellofa workout in. Maybe I will get to see and chat with a fellow team member.
I quickly shower and slip on my provided workout gear and tennis shoes and head off into the wilderness that is the compound. I walk through with a smile on my face. I made my way through the compound, passing by all the places available to us. They really did go all out and I truly appreciate being invited to come here and being a part of this. I am proud to be here.
I enter the gym and smile that it is relatively empty. I do see Candice using some of the equipment. I shoot her a smile as she peers over at me, feeling my presence I am assuming. She does seem attuned that way.
I decided to get on the stair master machine. A highly advanced machine compared to the old days of this machine. I start off slow, but quickly pick up the pace. I trained for the entire team leading up to this event. I trained at everything. My cardio. My muscle endurance. My grip strength. All of it. This will be a good warm up. I get going at a good clip, starting to build up a good sweat. I notice that Candice starts heading my way. I reach the maximum clip of the machine. As she approaches, I begin to wind down.
“Hey there Jacoby. How are you doing?”
Should I answer honestly? I think a quick moment.
“I am doing alright. Just a little down. But I think working out will help it out. How are you doing?”
She nods and sits on the bench as I begin to fully stretch out.
“What’s up dude?”
Again, I think quickly, I’ll be honest with her.
“I’m just having a little bit of self doubt. I don’t know if I should keep carrying on as the self proclaimed leader of the blue team. I am not sure y’all need a leader at all. But I feel also that my dedication and drive to lead the team has helped y’all out. I don’t know Voo. I think it is all a bunch of BS in my head really.”
She peers at me, her eyebrows arch in a manner that means she is about to go all business owner and entrepreneur on me. I smile awaiting this little pep talk speech.
“Look Jacoby, I need you to understand that you are a leader. Need I remind you that, you were a big part of the Las Vegas Does making it to the Wonder Bowl in their first ever year? You are an amazingly strong person. You lead the team alongside Taurus and took that team all the way to the big game. Not that many people can say that. You can. Jacoby, you need to not be so hard on yourself. Yes I know, we are our own worst critics. Nothing will change that. I get that. I am harder on myself than anybody on this planet can be. Hell, after this is all done and over with. I look forward to what you can do with the Does this next season. I believe in you Jacoby. Now finish your workout.”
I chuckle and smile.
“Thank you Voo. I know that this is an individual event and we are all truly out for ourselves in this but I am willing and able to be the blue team leader until that is no longer needed.”
She nods as I stretch out some more and she moves onto her next part of the workout. I lifted some weights. Did a good run on the treadmill. Then I decided that I was going to head out and do some swimming too. I nodded again at Candice as I walked out of the gym and felt good about myself more after that little chat. I didn’t get a chance to ask her what her decision might be, but I’ll let that be revealed in time.
...A SHAKE UP!!!